Oh My

Hi Readers, I'm myself not sure what is happening around here nowadays. Just a thing I know, that some people are hating me. I can just say, I can't do anything and will do nothing. Sooner or later, all this will one day stop. In a meantime, I just have to continue with my life, eventhough these people claim that my life sucks to the maximum.

I can just laugh reading all those post in my tagboard. Just can't get it why are people so "busy" nowadays. Just a word to say, go study. (: If you guys want to be shitty with me, I can't do anything. One very important thing to say:

Aku bersyukur aku tak dilahirkan cacat. Walaupun seseorang itu cacat, beliau dapat berfikir dengan waras. I admit I'm not pretty, I'm dark, I'm fat, I'm hairy, I'm such a faker, or whatsoever, I'm a happy person and I'm thankful to Allah that I'm not born like you guys who go around critisizing people who are fat, ugly and etc.

By the way, does fat and ugly people will not have true friends? Oh, or maybe, fat and ugly people will one day ditch people like you? And then, you will regret it and go back to them. It's ok. Just go ahead and confront me. If you know that I know who you guys are, then why can't you just say it out or use your own name in the posts that you wrote?

So, what if i'm not like you guys? Does that bother you too much that it hurts your eyes looking at me. And if it does hurt looking at my fucking ugly face or my fucking fat body, then why the fuck are you still looking at me and staring at me?

Oh Please! Wake up. Bersyukur sebelum terlambat. Ok now, you must be rolling your eyes and saying "cermin diri sendiri sebelum nak ceramahkan orang". Whatever guys. ((:

I Tried But I Failed

It was a chaotic day for me at Guardian. Busy dealing with customers, doing face-out, displaying new items and lastly customers speaking mandarin. I knew how to show them where is the product but couldn't help when it comes to explaination. Sometimes, there is a need to attend those Conventional Mandarin classes that my sister recommended.

Usually during working hours, I tend to continuously look at my watch to keep track of time because I just can't wait until the day is over. Unfortunately, that wasn't the case just now. It was such a busy day, I have to keep walking around the shop to do face-out.

What A Big Surprise

It was unexpected for BF today because I gave him a very huge surprise. I realised that I made a very big mistake yesterday and would do anything to repent my mistakes. So, I decided that this is the way to make up for it.

I started off by telling him that I need his help to buy something for me at Yishun Northpoint. Since he is walking out of camp at 6pm, I must be there earlier. I bought him Chocolate Cream from LJS as he wanted it so much. Then I went to Mini Toons to buy a pretty box as he said that he needs a box to put the things I gave him. I gave him a call and told him to go to the respective shop.

When I saw him there, I gave him some wrong directions to let him see me. Unfortunately, he can't spot me. I gave him a big hug and handed him the box which contained the Chocolate Cream. We went over to his void deck and ate them all. I love you BF! Your expression was expensive though.

I will love the every moment we spent together today even if it's just for a short few hours. Nur Ain will be back! ((:

Let start with a smile and end with it too. (:

5 years 5 months = Secondary 1-4, ITE= 1 year. Currently, 5 months.

Doesn't that make 5 years 5 months. I'm simply counting the number of years we were already in contact. But thanks to Marwan, we got to meet up once more. ((:

Make The Effort To Find Ain

I love you, and I love you even more.

I know that sometimes, I may be going a bit out of hand, but you know that I don't mean it. What effort does it takes to love? We have known each other for 5 years and 5 months. What else can't we give in and compromise? Why isn't it like before? I know you have given me your best, but we both wants more than that right? So, why aren't we both giving each other space for us to communicate? I just know that this won't take long. I know that sooner or later, everything will be as per normal. I just know that deep down in you, you don't mean whatever you said to me. I just know that we love each other. I love you Mazlan Bin Aziz.

Memories That Remained

This is a picture of me at the end of the BLAZE I camp. Those memorable moments will still be with me.

If you asked me to pick the best camp I have ever attended, I will say, Purple group will be rated second best group I ever had.
I LOVE YOU WINX CLUB (PURPLE)

The moment where the whole camp knows who Nur Ain really is.

Even if I'm shiverring on stage, staggered my words, and unsure of what I was about to say, I managed to clinched the first price for the Leaders' Nite Competition. Thanks to my group and everyone else that supporteed me when I was nervous on stage.

Biggest Fear

My dad sms-ed me in the middle of a meeting today, telling me he is on MC. "Incedent balik buat sunglass" = Accident, balik buat spectacle. (translation: He met with an accident, when I come home, we will do my new spectacle)

When I had a look at the message from Dad, my mind was playing around with the words on my HP screen. He told me that he slipped and the stairs scratched his left leg. When I saw way the doctor bandaged his leg, I knew that it was a very long wound. Lucky thing is Dad is fine. I was worried for a moment because he is now Diabetic and any wound on diabetic leg might affect someone's condition.

Well, currently, I'm just working on weekends and so, I felt different all of a sudden. I'm not complaining, but just relieved that I'm not working everyday. ((:

Extended Shopping Hours

I feel weird once I enteres shop this evening. It seems that I have forgotten everything that was taught to me. Well, we closed later today because there is an extended shopping hour for 3 continuous days.

Well, BF told me that someone is trying to break us up with something else that I wouldn't want to speak up. Well, if you think it's funny, then go ahead and laugh, because it's there for a valid purpose. After a long webcamming-misery-plus-fighting night yesterday, we are finally back to normal. I wonder something. If you love that person, why must there be an arguement? I realised something important yesterday though.